Firstly I want to congratulate my Sister and Brother in law, who just 2 hours ago became parents for the first time, to little baby Charlotte. My new adorable little niece.
While I have been excited this entire pregnancy, I suppose it was fairly recently that my brain has started to wrap around the idea of "parenting" and the fact alone that I will, in just 4 months be someone's Mother.
It's a sobering thought to know that you are now responsible for this tiny human who will need you for years and years, and even when they're older and independent - still need you.
I've watched my own relationship grow, and I believe bloom with my own Mother.
Going from small child, to moody teenager, to clueless adult and now to being a Mother myself, with what I hope is a tad more wisdom.
Our relationship has grown into better than a friendship and better than a Mother-Daughter relationship.
I'm blessed with all the perks of being my Mother's daughter - knowing I'm always getting the truth, someone who will tell it to me like it is, but is still someone I can run to when trouble hits, and know without a doubt that I'll be supported and loved. Yet, at the same time have a friend I love to hang around with, laugh with and be silly with.
What an enormous blessing its been to me - and as I find myself moving into that "Mother" stage, all I can hope is that I can have that same type of relationship with my own children.
I'm re-defining myself, and much like I did when I was a teenager; going over all my morals and beliefs. Figuring out what's really important to me - how Jeremie and I are going to raise this baby and what values to instill in her. We will, of course, being raising her in the Christian faith and try to help her to love God as much as Jeremie and I do.
It is the everyday things I need to look at: Should we own this dvd? Keep this book? Would I want my child seeing this video game?
Of course, if I have any hesitancy with an item I own - I wonder if I should have it regardless of whether or not a child will soon be here. It's a lot to comprehend, and I still don't understand the half of it.
I am proud to soon have the label of "Mother" though, and have found being pregnant one of the most feminine, liberating thing I have ever done as a woman.
I am truly amazed every time the baby moves or kicks; and day by day realizing how much of a miracle it really is.
All I can do is my best, and thank God for surrounding me with such wonderful examples of Motherhood.